December 2010
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It's okay to cry, it's okay to be sad about it....
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Who I am hates who I've been.
Let’s just say, my life isn’t what it seems to be to other people. I smile so people don’t see me cry. I laugh so people don’t see me break down. I’m not saying my life is awful, because it isn’t. It’s a blessing from God. It truly is. But all I keep thinking about is how it’s not going the way I want it to.
Death. Lies. Hate. Judgement....
On Thanksgiving, all Uncle Bing talked about was how the recession effected the turkey sales. On Christmas, I could imagine he would talk all about the Cavs and their losing streak(s) and the outrageous gas prices.
We miss you, especially my Dad.
While you’re up there, Uncle Bing, keep him safe. I worry about him. A lot. Make sure you show him that you’re up there watching over him....
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What's worse is that I saw this coming a mile away...
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Day 15: The Person You Miss The Most.
I’m so glad you made time to see me. How’s life? Tell me how’s your family I haven’t seen them in a while. You’ve been good, busier than ever, We small talk, work and the weather, Your guard is up and I know why. ‘cause the last time you saw me Is still burned in the back of your mind You gave me roses and I left them there to die. So this is me swallowing my...
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Day 14: Someone You’ve Drifted Away From.
Dear “in the past” friend,
I miss you. A lot. No one may know that because every time your name is brought up in a casual conversation, I either ignore it or say something that may not be the most true about you. You taught me a lot, even if you will never know that. You taught me patience, confidence, and happiness. And even love. Something recently proved to me that you...
Good night, moon. :]
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Day 13: Someone You Wish Could Forgive You.
The reason it took me so long to do “Day 13” was because I had to think about who didn’t forgive me for something - someone out there who doesn’t accept my apology. Honestly, I couldn’t think of anyone. I may be wrong but I don’t think there is anyone. I don’t wanna be on bad terms with someone. I’ve recently had to push a few people of my life...
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Some of the most comforting words in the universe...
This week…wow…it’s been crazy. I feel like everything has been nonstop for the last month or so.
My dad lost his brother unexpectedly on Sunday evening. When we got the news, my dad took the palm of his hand and held his head up. He looked faint and at that moment, he started wailing. I’ve never seen my dad like this. Ever. My mom, brother, and I were in the room when my...
Haaaa. Tumblr, you scared me there for a hot...
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Day 12: The person You Hate Most/Caused You A Lot...
I don’t hate you. I never will. I actually love you. I do. I always will. I mean, sure - I wish you didn’t hurt me. I wish you didn’t reject me. I wish you didn’t leave me. You banged me up a bit. Physically, mentally, and emotionally. Metaphorically and literally. However, I wake up everyday telling myself, “I’m going to smile, even though I feel like breaking...
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Day 11: A Deceased Person You Wish You Could Talk...
“I noticed how beautiful the sky was the other day, and realized it’s because you’re up there.”
Uncle Terry, I miss you. We all missed you. You were such an amazing uncle. I know you tried to fight your sickness. You just wouldn’t give up so easily because that’s who you were. You didn’t want to give up but God called you home. It was a lot to take in, it...